Sparkly Opportunities *or* Streaming from my Consciousness on a Sunday Afternoon

Brain overload!

I know I already blogged this, but I have so much on my mind, I can hardly start thinking about any of it at all. It's like having so many cars in the parking lot that no one can move. Brain-circuit traffic jam!

...So I find myself like I did this morning, in the shower, deep in concentration, when it suddenly dawns on me that I need to continue bathing. So I fill my palm with shampoo, and suddenly remember that I already washed my hair. Dang! Soap down the drain. What day is it again? [lol!]

Of Jewels and Sparkle
Primarily important on my mind is the needed second job. As I've reiterated countless times in this space (or maybe just on Facebook) I am not by any means an ideal candidate for a nine-to-five. SO many reasons what that's a bad idea for me. I'd much rather work two jobs.

I have a shiny, sparkly brilliant opportunity at my fingertips. It's part time, the hours are flexible, the earning potential is good, and I really like the product. It would be a great outlet for my extroverted, public-speaking-loving side, and help me to socialize. But the best part is the product: It's jewelry! Really gorgeous and affordable costume jewelry. I went to three parties for this particular direct seller in the past year, had a blast at all of them, and have started a small collection of their pieces.

(Yes, me. I started an everyday jewelry collection. I like it that much!)

However, I'm partially terrified to take on this new role in direct sales. I have a past in the industry, and have already learned my strengths and weaknesses in the field. Among my weaknesses is a tendency to be ultra-hard on myself, to the extent that it affects my self-esteem and ultimately, my sales. I get down on myself, and I start to believe that I'm not going to make any sales. My sales figures start to drop, and it becomes a self-fulfilling prophesy. And yet, it's all in my head. When I'm feeling good and well dressed and in my element, I do Very Well Indeed! But I tend to sabotage myself before I get started. I remind myself daily that I don't (k)πow BLeeP. And while I'm working on it, I'm not yet proficient at developing a positive self-attitude on a daily basis.

I think that the more I talk this out, the more likely I am to overcome it.